Friday, June 20, 2003

My Dog Is Pooping Blood And Throwing Up Yogurt, day 17

that's not true, is the coolest boyfriend I've had all but, unfortunately, has not been more fluid or more fellowship between them.

Anyway, I had several years of suffering by the mere thought of having a mind. In part, during the years I was completely depressed, I reveled in it to try and achieve final liberation, to force my mind to escape from herself by all means a radical break with their normal operations. When the Depression came, I tried not to be interested in anything with the same purpose, and was equally useless. Realizing this, I tried to change that but I found it impossible. Nothing interested me, except be with my Jordito. I never saltsation of vitality had been increasing again during the day and, on her way to my house, the ride became a great delight, I was touched by the cool temperatures, exercise, had been stopped stairs to the subway and having to walk up, I shuddered with a blast of air that the feelings were made even more enjoyable. Curiously, a season made me take antidepressants and I felt not the least lively.

I knew it would last forever, but even that could estorpearlo. I would never feel fairly well and this was a godsend. When I was young and began to experiment with sex, dancing and drugs, I felt a special excitement, but

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